These are questions we tend to ask when things aren’t going the way we would desire for them to go. Why me? Why this? Why now?
here is a paragraph from the middle, but you really have to go read and perhaps meditate on the whole thing
As that deeper question sinks home, you become joyously sane. The universe is no longer supremely about you. Yet you are not irrelevant. God’s story makes you just the right size. Everything counts, but the scale changes to something that makes much more sense. You face hard things. But you have already received something better which can never be taken away. And that better something will continue to work out the whole journey long.
I have the Kindle version of Suffering and the Sovereignty of God on my iPhone. Obviously, I need to read past the introduction.